Dining Rm. Table/Kitchen Tables

This one has a leaf.

This one does not have a leaf.

According to my husband, I will never find a table at this rate lol. We went to 4 stores on Saturday & Sunday. I have not found one that i even half like let alone one that i absolutely adore. We looked up one of our furniture stores online which we have not visited and I see one that i would probably "settle" for, but really should I? I know that it is just a table but I told Nick i really wanted to invest in one as opposed to buy a cheap one to replace in a year.

We were anticipating looking at houses this year, but in January decided that we would wait until next year. Since DH is uncomfortable with where the economy is, its the best choice for now and we do love where we live. The ammenities outrank everything else. So keeping that in mind, im trying to find a table with a leaf so it can be much larger in a house, but maybe im being unreasonable.

I really need some outside advice on this. My husband thinks just look for a table that can move into a kitchen. Our Dining Room, Kitchen, LR is all combined right now (apartment living at its best) so we cant have something too large. So my question is should I just give it up on the leaf thing and settle for a table that is just smaller (a 4 person table only) as opposed to looking at one that can expand to 6 people. I get what Nick is saying because if we were to get an official dining room table then what about the hutch and etc? Hes like you will want that stuff later on and it might not be available. I dont know im so confused. What i do know is that Ikea is not on the list for this table at all. I found 2 tables, one that has a leaf and one that doesnt. The one with the leaf im so iffy on and dont absolutely love it. The other one i have loved and continue to love but would have to risk ordering it online, site unseen. Top one has a leaf and is the "iffy" one, the bottom one has no leaf.

If you have any other ideas where i can look, im open to it. Our requirements were dark wood, square or rectangular and the option to have chairs without arms on it.

Terrified

I have a dr. appointment feb.27th and im terrified. Prior i had 3 exams that could not be finished because i was in so much pain. Now i know that this type of exam should be a bit uncomfortable but everyone keeps reassuring me that its nothing and should not hurt. I just cant get this out of my head. Previously i was at the hospital and was scared and upset, so im trying to train my mind that maybe it was worse because of what i was going through then. I already know i need to knock it off and stop thinking about it cause then i will be through the roof.

I know it needs to be done because i want some answers. I have this gut feeling that clomid is coming my way. Ive read about the bad side effects but what else can i do? So if anyone reads this please keep me in your prayers because im truly afraid.

On a side note, we did our taxes and we are getting a refund. YAY!! So i will finally be getting a kitchen table, hooray! We went looking today at like 3 stores and i couldnt even find one that i half liked let alone one that i had to have. Im hoping to find one before March, since my mother in law and sister in law are coming to visit, and the card table with the table cloth has got to go after a year!!

Thankful for

I am thankful for an amazing husband who supports me no matter what. Someone who may not appear sensitive to the outside, but is very sensitive. I swear he has the biggest heart of any man i have ever known. Were on to yet another month of trying and i cant help but dread it and feel a sense of gloom like why even keep trying when its not happening. Im dealing extremely well with it knowing how much worse I have been.

My husband doesnt cry at the drop of a dime or anything but i feel like the TTC is finally catching up with him. He rushed home and hugged me so tight and started to well up a bit and im like its okay, im okay. We just have to find out what the next step is. Well we know what it is its just a matter of getting an appointment. We may have to go to a meeting this wednesday and im really nervous if thats what she does want us to do. Its just an informational meeting with a bunch of other couples. I really really think very highly of those girls who go through IUI or IVF but i dread it. I will admit im the biggest baby ever and not to mention its really $$$$. Our next mission is a SA and then finding a new OB/Gyn. My PCP said they will probably want me to get on Clomid to track the ovulation since my cyles are very abnormal lately and then move ahead with that. They may also want to do another ultrasound to check the cyst that I have. Which is what I am most concerned with. Im really worried it is something more then the last doctor said. Ever since i found out i had it my cycles have been off the chart.

Im very thankful for my family as well. You never know what is going to happen so hug them tight and let them know how much you love them. Every breath you take can change in a matter of moments. Be mindful of those around you because you may not know it but your words can make or break someone.

Im thankful for my friends and most of all my nestie friends. I cant imagine going through any of this without their words of support and encouragement and yes even love. They have made a very large difference in my life so far from home.

TTC going on month 11

I cant believe that in March it will be a year. Its been a long hard ride. Some days are better then others recently. Im still holding on to that hope and its hard when everyone around you is getting pregnant except for you. Its so difficult to explain to anyone. I really did wish some family like my mom and my mother in law did know because i almost feel as though if i had their prayers then maybe for once we would be successful.

Sometimes those who are TTC can make up symptoms in their head and get really excited, that includes me sometimes. The problem with that is all your hopes and dreams get up so high and then come crashing down. Its so intense to go back and forth but we still hang in there. It is finally catching up to Nick and my heart goes out to him because hes behind as far as the emotions go. We really just want to have a baby and make the most of every day and no matter what we can do this and push through. I say this now but tomorrow i could feel the exact opposite thats just how this goes.

I think that some people don't realize how much their happiness can hurt others, which by no means makes it their fault. Things are difficult to hear or read but eventually you just move past it and get back to enjoying life. I guess vent over and lesson learned.

Cutest shoes!

I actually purchased these like a week but they are the cutest. They are Mossimo Vennie. This picture does them no justice. I purchased them in black. When you look at them straight on they look like the cutest heels but no heel. I like heels and flats so these are great! They were 75% off in store, i see online they are half off. I kept looking at them prior to purchasing then i had to go back and get them. I think paid $8 for them at the store. So cute. The fit seems fine i would even say they are a bit widetowards the top of my foot but thats good for me because i have wide feet :) I went with my normal size and was plenty fine. Ive been busy getting back to classes and etc and im expecting 2 boxes today in the mail so expect some reviews. Have a great Hump day!

E.L.F.

I just placed an order with elf yesterday morning, which if you dont know what that is its www.eyeslipsface.com Mostly everything is $1, they do have a studio and mineral line which is $3-5. When we were out this weekend hunting for E.L.F. sold at the stores and the only thing i could find was the compact and the drama eyeshadow kit.

All i can say is wow! I love the drama eyeshadow. I played with it today and it looks great! My husband was shocked because its the first time i did a real smokey eye and it looked great. Its well worth $1. It does have some fallout but that was an easy fix. I would definately purchase again. Ill review the other items as they arrive. I had done some research prior to my purchase so if you have any questions feel free to ask. Some of the items are great while others are not worth it at all. Have a great Monday!!

Tested some samples

Heres a few things i tested today, let me preface by saying that i received these back in december or even late november. It came in the traincase from sephora for free :) Gotta love freebies.

Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion- $16 @ Sephora for a full size. I have heard raves about this product and it does work pretty well. The shadow holds on well and everything. Since i have a bunch of BE products, i really want to try their eye primer and see how it compares. I would recommend this though!

Smashbox Photo Finish Light Primer--$36 @Sephora. I have tried the Prime Time Primer from Bare Escentuals and i prefer it over this one. This one is different from just the regular photo finish primer. This is geared toward people with oily skin and sensitive skin. While i do have sensitive skin, i have very very dry skin. This requires more then the BE Prime Time Primer. The BE primer says pea size and that is beyond accurate. You dont need hardly any at all. Both make your face very smooth but the texture after it is applied and your make up is on feels different to me. Im going to get the BE primer and that primer is only $21 compared to the smashbox.

Cosmedicine Primary Care SPF 20 Moisturizer- $48 @ Sephora. I really did not like this. It did not moisturize like it should for the price. Luckily mine was just a sample. Its thin and requires a lot and I still did not feel moisturized. I would not recommend this.

Anastasia brow powder duo: Came with two colors in ash blonde and brunette. I tried both colors of the ash blonde, the darker one was better but not exactly right for my brows. My brows are reddish blonde, which i see on the website they do offer a color duo for that. The duo is $22 @ Sephora. Im iffy on brow powder as it is because i have never really used any before and Im not sure id use it everyday or even enough to cover the cost of it. It wasnt bad though and went on well with a flat edged brush which i already own.


Thats what i tried today and the rest of the samples, either dont apply to me yet ( like wrinkles and eye lifts) and 3 of them were tinted foundations or moisturizers and were way too dark for me. Have a great day everyone!

**Id like to add really quickly, I made the recipe from yesterdays post and it was sooo yummy were having leftovers tonight.**