Few other things from Target

Global Bazarr is your friend :) 75% off also. There was this huge wall hanging/mirror (2nd image) that i have been looking at since it ever went on the shelves. For a long time, Dh and I wanted some kind of burst hanging. Well this one is in the shape of a flower. I was shocked that Dh loved it just as much as i did, i mean what man loves a flower that will hang on the wall. Our bedroom is the only one that hasnt been totally redone. We want this to hang over our bed. Was $99 Now $24

The top mirror, i just could resist either and i have no idea where it will go. We will see what Dh says but i love the material the mirror is made out of. Was $80 Now $20. They also have it in round, now im wondering if i should have gotten round. Its not as yellowish as that picture makes it, its much more white in color.

I also bought a wall hanging that has a tree in it like a shadow box. I have this thing for trees i dont know what it is. Theres no image online for that but it was $8. Then i found a few knick knacks like decorative pieces and other things for my friends shower ;) Enjoy the clearance while its around!

What a steal !!!

Well a few things were a steal today at Target, my fav lol. First of all the lipgloss pictured above. It is scented and i had no idea until I put it on. It smells like peaches. I have been watching this lipgloss forever. It was in a star shaped case and took forever to get marked 75% off. Yes im cheap like that lol. I have tons of lipgloss and if its clearance than im all about adding more to my purse. This stuff is thick and when you first put it on it has a cooling feeling, not tingling at all. This one is super shimmery but then again it is called "sparkle". It is the Neutrogena MoistureShine Lip Soother Cooling Hydragel, wow thats a big breath lol. It has an spf of 20. regular price was around 7.50 and i bought it for $1.52. This is a must buy for sure!

Dining Rm. Table/Kitchen Tables

This one has a leaf.

This one does not have a leaf.

According to my husband, I will never find a table at this rate lol. We went to 4 stores on Saturday & Sunday. I have not found one that i even half like let alone one that i absolutely adore. We looked up one of our furniture stores online which we have not visited and I see one that i would probably "settle" for, but really should I? I know that it is just a table but I told Nick i really wanted to invest in one as opposed to buy a cheap one to replace in a year.

We were anticipating looking at houses this year, but in January decided that we would wait until next year. Since DH is uncomfortable with where the economy is, its the best choice for now and we do love where we live. The ammenities outrank everything else. So keeping that in mind, im trying to find a table with a leaf so it can be much larger in a house, but maybe im being unreasonable.

I really need some outside advice on this. My husband thinks just look for a table that can move into a kitchen. Our Dining Room, Kitchen, LR is all combined right now (apartment living at its best) so we cant have something too large. So my question is should I just give it up on the leaf thing and settle for a table that is just smaller (a 4 person table only) as opposed to looking at one that can expand to 6 people. I get what Nick is saying because if we were to get an official dining room table then what about the hutch and etc? Hes like you will want that stuff later on and it might not be available. I dont know im so confused. What i do know is that Ikea is not on the list for this table at all. I found 2 tables, one that has a leaf and one that doesnt. The one with the leaf im so iffy on and dont absolutely love it. The other one i have loved and continue to love but would have to risk ordering it online, site unseen. Top one has a leaf and is the "iffy" one, the bottom one has no leaf.

If you have any other ideas where i can look, im open to it. Our requirements were dark wood, square or rectangular and the option to have chairs without arms on it.

Terrified

I have a dr. appointment feb.27th and im terrified. Prior i had 3 exams that could not be finished because i was in so much pain. Now i know that this type of exam should be a bit uncomfortable but everyone keeps reassuring me that its nothing and should not hurt. I just cant get this out of my head. Previously i was at the hospital and was scared and upset, so im trying to train my mind that maybe it was worse because of what i was going through then. I already know i need to knock it off and stop thinking about it cause then i will be through the roof.

I know it needs to be done because i want some answers. I have this gut feeling that clomid is coming my way. Ive read about the bad side effects but what else can i do? So if anyone reads this please keep me in your prayers because im truly afraid.

On a side note, we did our taxes and we are getting a refund. YAY!! So i will finally be getting a kitchen table, hooray! We went looking today at like 3 stores and i couldnt even find one that i half liked let alone one that i had to have. Im hoping to find one before March, since my mother in law and sister in law are coming to visit, and the card table with the table cloth has got to go after a year!!

Thankful for

I am thankful for an amazing husband who supports me no matter what. Someone who may not appear sensitive to the outside, but is very sensitive. I swear he has the biggest heart of any man i have ever known. Were on to yet another month of trying and i cant help but dread it and feel a sense of gloom like why even keep trying when its not happening. Im dealing extremely well with it knowing how much worse I have been.

My husband doesnt cry at the drop of a dime or anything but i feel like the TTC is finally catching up with him. He rushed home and hugged me so tight and started to well up a bit and im like its okay, im okay. We just have to find out what the next step is. Well we know what it is its just a matter of getting an appointment. We may have to go to a meeting this wednesday and im really nervous if thats what she does want us to do. Its just an informational meeting with a bunch of other couples. I really really think very highly of those girls who go through IUI or IVF but i dread it. I will admit im the biggest baby ever and not to mention its really $$$$. Our next mission is a SA and then finding a new OB/Gyn. My PCP said they will probably want me to get on Clomid to track the ovulation since my cyles are very abnormal lately and then move ahead with that. They may also want to do another ultrasound to check the cyst that I have. Which is what I am most concerned with. Im really worried it is something more then the last doctor said. Ever since i found out i had it my cycles have been off the chart.

Im very thankful for my family as well. You never know what is going to happen so hug them tight and let them know how much you love them. Every breath you take can change in a matter of moments. Be mindful of those around you because you may not know it but your words can make or break someone.

Im thankful for my friends and most of all my nestie friends. I cant imagine going through any of this without their words of support and encouragement and yes even love. They have made a very large difference in my life so far from home.